Let me tell you guys a story. That was my story when i was 15 years old. I got an accident and late to the hospital (3 hours maybe) and my right leg became dark blue like a deep sea. I lost too much of my blood and i was tired at the time, struggle to live huh? haha but still i can heard what doctors said. Three doctors was arguing about my situation.  Two doctors said "It's too late we have to cut her leg before the bacteria spread to another area. oh yeah my right leg was stabbed with a rusty nail but i'm lucky cause it don't cause tetanus. Make it short, my right leg was saved thanks to the young doctor. He is the one step infront and asked me " you want your leg? if you want to keep it, you have to be strong. There are many things you can't do. so you want or not?".  Ofcourse i said i want it. Am i crazy to lost my leg? 😒 but back then i don't think that is a big price just to keep my leg but after i figured out. I lost my mind.

Never a minutes or second to me stop to try to kill myself. I'm depressed. i can't run or jump anymore. I lost my life. There are competitions i participated with my big brother but i got dismissed from the team. My brother? he is a good person. He takes care of me everyday and he stop playing what i like to play. He stopped for  my sake but still i mad at him everytime he step in into my room. He likes to chat with me every morning before he went to school but i keep silent until he left. That happened for 2 months.
what he's so determined? this is my life not him!

But one day i can't stop thinking what he said "sis, you've lost your ability to run and jump but you still can walk. You still have your leg while another people out there want it but they can't have it. Why you push yourself like this? if you want to play,  if you still want to run and jump, just go with that! do what you want and nobody will stop you cause only you know the consequences"

what happened next?

I've strength to face the world again. many.. many..many thanks to my brother to never give up on me. Thanks to his advices. Without him maybe i still in the dark forever. I can't run and jump but i can walk 😊 i still can see beautiful things that i missed for two months. Thank you bro!