Time flies so fast. It's already past 10 years when i went to Mecca. Uhuk! I missed it badly. Let's flashback to the start. hmm..

I lived at school hostel back then and i rarely back home maybe 1 or two times in 2 months. Well that's not important. What i want to tell you the first day i back home after a long time, I was curious when i saw many begs on my parents's bed and after my dad gave us (me and my big brother) explanation. i was like "seriously? okay".

Maybe you all got excited if you suddenly got a visa and you be informed that you will board a plane to the holy place but me? I was scared.. really scared cause i heard from my unties's stories many-many times when she back from that place "There is holy place. If you did bad things, you will be punished on the spot". yeah i'm a bad girl. I admit it.

To make it short. We already reached Makkah and when I was about to get off the bus, I shivered and kept praying in my heart. "o Allah.. forgive me. I admit i'm wrong. please accept me as your guest" cause i think i would be faint or comas for a long time if i set my foot on the ground but what happened next? nothing! I was relieved until i smiled like crazy girl. ahaha.

When i saw Makkah for the first time. I was speechless. There are many people around the world with the huge crowds in Makkah, My mom always kept my hand. She worried if she lost of me but honestly i don't like people hold my hands and that time i'm not in good relationship with her. Usually i tried to let go of her hand but that time i let her? That was strange! 

And what else?oh yeah..Have you ever seen a man change his attitude suddenly? it happened to my family. Before we went to Mecca, I always raised voices with them. It all happened after my grandpa passed away but after we went to Makkah, My family changed 100%.. even though I made a small mistake, they suddenly became hot temper and i ? i kept talking in my head "what's wrong with these people?".

Do you guys understand? we like swapped our behavior and attitude.

i yang jenis panas baran bertukar jadi pendiam dan mereka yang jenis tak lah suka tinggikan suara tetiba jadi bengis dan panas baran. It happened everyday and night during Umrah! but that was strange that i don't feel like i want to mad or angry at all. strange! really weird!

Okay keep going. Next Madinah. When i saw madinah infront of my eyes, i was so sad. "I'm here? this is not dream,right? I'm here! finally here! o my prophet, i can meet you!". I will tell you guys one of  my big secrets. I don't like to share this with my family cause they will think i'm crazy but is okay to share this in this blog. haha. When i was staying in madinah. I'll find some quiet place and away from my family just want to talk to myself. Actually i talked with my prophet. There are lot stories i shared with him. I told him what happened to me after my grandpa (tok abah) died and why i changed from a good daughter to a bad daughter and what happened to my family that time. All of them without missed. lol.

After 12 days, we ready to left and my family's attitude torward me same like that but i don't mind it. I raised my hands to the tomb of the prophet Muhammad and say "see you. Hope we can meet again" so yeah we back to our country, Malaysia. The end.

Questions:

Do my family still like that? the answer is no. Two weeks after we back from Umrah, they became normal and we forgave each other. They said they are not understand what happened. wuuuu... macam kena rasuk! haha and i'm not a same person as before. I don't like to raised my voice anymore but don't try to mad me angry. Even nicest person's patience has a limit ^^

What i mostly wished for during Mecca?
i wished i die at that place but i'm still alive until now 😂

okay guys.. wait for another post okay.. let me think first what i want to write.lol